So being his girl is an impossible wish.....

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
He's only a friend, and nothing else--
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying he's just a bud,
But deep inside, you're falling in love.
You get so giddy when you meet his eyes,
But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretned that you don't care.
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that he's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being his girl is an impossible wish...

The workings of a love struck girl

He just came by
He didn't even say hi
He knows I exist
He knows
He doesn't care
He whom i love

These are not the ravings of a lovesick teen
These are not the words of a immature fool
These are the words of one who knows
One who knows what it is to love with till it hurts
One who love till it hurts
One who yearns to be loved in return

Is it so hard?
Is it so impossible?
isn't age a number?
Isn't life about love?
Don't you preach to love?

Love
I hate loving you.

The Complex Mind- The begining

SO ive finally caved in and started a blog. I've thought about the many reasons NOT to create a blog. But the idea of shring my life and its upheavels with the possible millions was just too appealing for some insane reason. My life. Its right now in the uncertain stages in almost every aspect. Futuristically ( uni and stuff), Love life ( those who now.. nod ur heads), wheter or not to get out of bed early sunday morning or to lie here finishing this post. Im one of those people who hate uncertainty. I rather go out of my way to be sure that this is gonna happen. i am going to to this or that. But for some reason, life never seems to be certain. I guess this is the makings of an incredibly complex mind.

So now, here i am, sitting on my bed , typing this blog post. About me
1. I am officially 50 kgs in weight!!!
2. I have 6 dogs.
3. I am female
4. I love reading ( as in absolutely love it. Not cheesy romances or crap but good solid books)
5. I also love baking
6. I enjoy poetry
7. I play the piano
8. My room is a constant mess
9. I cannot think of anything else that might be of interest.


SO now i shall take your leave and go and think about why i decided to start a blog. Perhaps that will be my next post

TATA