Frustration

Its really true. Manipal does teach you alot. More than an education about medicine, you get an education about life. I've learnt some stuff so far... but somehow i have a feeling that before im done in Manipal, i;ll be getting alot more of these,sometimes,not so pleasent lessons on life.
Perhaps this is why people change, or rather they hide what is really true about themselves.

Sometimes I wonder.. that fateful CHOICE that i made..is it really worth it? Would i have been happier being one of the crowd. But then again, if i didnt make that choice... i would not have met some of the most wonderful people i know today. All that said and done, the choice has been mae. There is no turning back now.

SO if you havent alreay guessed, I am not in the best of moods at the moment. I miss people who understand. Its sa that were all miles n miles apart. If we were together, things would be different.
It feels sometimes like im floating alone.. in this life.. in this place. Its scary cos for the first time in my life, it feels that way. I've never felt this way before. Whats worse is that this is the totally worng time to be feeling this way. I've got exams coming up, and if i dont wanna be kept back 6 months, i need to buckle down n work hard. Its hard to focus. Its easy to say, u know what u came here for and so just shut up and get to it. But its no so easy to do. Manipal can get very lonely. But sometimes, this lonliness is educating. I think ive been educated on this aspect enough..I'd like my life back if thats ok...

i guess thats all